So 2020 already has a month under it’s belt and it seems scary that the time has flown by so quickly!

In terms of successful keeping on New Year’s Resolutions. I think I have broken every single one already. However, it is not a failure. It is incredibly difficult to set resolutions with the aim of overhauling your life and stick to it religiously. Old habits need time to be unlearnt and new ones take time to adopt.

For me, my major stumbling block this month was depression. I suffer was Anxiety and Depression. I went back on medication at the end of November and have had a wave of side effects, heart palpitations and feeling incredibly anxious gave way to exhaustion. I have been so tired for weeks and it has been a real struggle to do anything, let alone getting on a hoodie and some trainers to go out in the wet and a cold for a run (I hate the wet anyway and hate water hitting my face).

I’ve been craving foods I like, sugary snack foods, crisps, chocolate, cola. Completely wrong to eat but they make me in the short term feel better.

My quest to read books with the aim of one every three weeks also has not happened yet. I’m halfway through one and I am not sure if that it because I’m not gelling with the characters in the book or I am not used to reading fiction.

Tomorrow, is February though, a new month. A chance to turn the page, literally in my journal’s case and have a fresh start, a new blank spread to fill in February. I’m going to get back on it and start again and try to slowly break down those old habits and work on forming new more positive ones.